#BelieveInMyself - Prolog

#BelieveInMyself

*Prolog. I admit it, It was damn hard to build a writing habit. But I will keep writing it, even I would postpone it, I will keep writing. No matter how inconsistent it will be. I hope I'm able to keep doing it.*

I want to write a post again, but this time I really need to build my self-confidence. There are already 2 persons, that inspire me the most, told me that I should have believed in myself. 

Two persons!. 'Two persons already liao!!. How come they notice me leh? It's because from junior high school you still never try to change your weakness. Never believe in yourself (Gak pede)''. *ok that's enough for Singlish accent :v

It's sad to admit that I started to look myself down when I was 15 years old, a junior high school student. It's exactly when we needed to practice in class how to give a speech in front of people without bringing text. My teacher taught us that we should learn how to deliver a speech impromptu, not by reading the speech, and other than that, not by memorizing the speech. No matter how hard I practiced delivering a speech impromptu, I ended up with a failure. It was not smooth delivered at all.  I was pretty sure I had given all the best at that time. At the end, when I was being called to deliver it in class, I managed to perform it well. Sadly it was not by impromptu; It is by memorizing. It's just like closing the tap water with tape. Temporarily solved, but the real issue (deliver impromptu) still remains.

But luckily, I have already acknowledged it really well, that communication is one of my biggest weaknesses, and Confidence is what I need. I will keep practicing it, and I start building my confidence. That's why I will write more short stories of myself in next upcoming posts,  to build my confidence, to #BelieveInMyself

#21March2020

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